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2012 in review

January 3, 2013

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The new Boeing 787 Dreamliner can carry about 250 passengers. This blog was viewed about 1,500 times in 2012. If it were a Dreamliner, it would take about 6 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

April 21, 2012

 

Yes, my darlings, this is me, Halloween 2010, as Eddie Izzard, the great and wonderful.

 

Sorry about the blur, we were all a little schnockered.

 

 

On searching for a job, or Finding your unique face in a sea of applications.

July 26, 2011

A lot has changed since my last post.

 

First and foremost:  I graduated from college!  I now have a B.A. in English with an Honors Interdisciplinary minor and an Art History minor.

This sums up my feelings pretty well.

 

Secondly, and not really surprisingly, I have discovered that the real world does not quite glitter with the hope and promise of the academic world.

 

Now kids, when they tell you at school that every single one of you is special and full of promise, they tell you everything you need to know about life.  Yes, you are special and full of promise.  However, so is just about everyone else sitting beside you.

Yes, kids, the name of the game when you become an adult is:

COMPETITION.

It's crazy out there.

 

But, I assure you, there is hope!  Even in this recession- and debt-riddled country, there is hope for all who are willing to fight the good fight to ensure their security and survival.  I admit, for some this hope is more realistic than others, but keeping a positive attitude is really about a third of the battle.

I have found that chance (or possibly fate) has a supreme hand in the job-finding business.  Sometimes you apply for a job online, forget about it for a few weeks, and then suddenly get surprised with a phone call (this has happened to me).  However, usually it doesn’t quite happen like that, especially if you care intensely about the career you are pursuing.  Every moment that you wait for your dream employer to call, be it a boss, a publisher, an agent, anyone, is absolute agony. You sit there, waiting to see if you are going to be able to pay your bills, pay off your debts and loans, pay for your medicine, and the worry and stress add just that many more lines to your face without getting you anywhere closer to that job.  A lot of managers don’t even like it when you check up on your application with a phone call or even an email (which is understandable, I suppose, they are busy people).

It comes down to this, from what I understand:

You do your absolute best, submit your application, check on it once, and let fate or chance or whoever figure it out from there. Just let go.

Lather, rinse, repeat.

There’s the trick, though:  you have to show your best work, your greatest individuality and talent, to as many employers as possible.  Let the world know that you are out there, searching for a job.  This means…you guessed it…

…getting off the couch and becoming active in the world.

 

If you haven’t noticed, this post is mostly me yelling at myself for getting pessimistic and a little too friendly with Netflix instead of getting off my bum and working to get a grown-up job.

But all of that is about to change!

So, what do I have to do?  Take my own advice, first of all.  Try to find a way to seem unique, to find myself and know what I have to offer, and then offer it to as many prospective employees as I can. Well, as many employees who are hiring people with my particular skills set, anyway.  That narrows it down significantly.

Then, maybe I can pay off some of my loans, save up some money, and go to graduate school like I really want to do. Wish me luck!

2010 in review

January 4, 2011

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Fresher than ever.

Crunchy numbers

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A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 1,400 times in 2010. That’s about 3 full 747s.

 

In 2010, there were 23 new posts, not bad for the first year! There were 49 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 64mb. That’s about 4 pictures per month.

The busiest day of the year was August 20th with 22 views. The most popular post that day was About.

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were WordPress Dashboard, myfountainonline.com, facebook.com, twitter.com, and timsnediker.wordpress.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for miley cyrus mouth open, high school hallways, the stepford wives, rob lowe, and miley cyrus ass.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

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About January 2010
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2

Who are the new great poets and authors? January 2010
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3

Living life… (Or, the world of a Teacher) April 2010
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4

What is going on here? February 2010
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Takin’ on the big one. September 2010
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Takin’ on the big one.

September 4, 2010

Relationships.

School.

Applications.

It’s started.

I had a break up just as the semester began, when I needed to really knuckle down on my graduate school applications.  Becoming an adult is stressful.

However, I have to say that I am handling things much, much better than I thought I would.  I have a lovely binder separating all of my information, a colorful planning board which breaks up my tasks into doable bits, and a lot of help from my advisor/thesis mentor, friends, and family.

Besides all of that, though, I’m starting to realize how lucky I am.

I get to join the ranks of women who have braved new cities, new lives, new possibilities.  If I get into a good graduate school, I will get to study literature with some of the finest minds in the country.  I’ll be challenged more than I ever have, facing myself and my abilities in my most vulnerable state of mind.

I’ll be completely out of my comfort zone, but I will be able to face those challenges and come out of it a much stronger person.  This is really what I’ve been waiting for, what I’ve spent my whole life working hard in school for, the reason I have built good habits to get good grades, the reason I did a lot of activities and put in the extra time and effort.  This is the moment I have been building towards for a long time.

This has been a really challenging year for me, and next year will be even more difficult…  But I am ready for it.

I am ready to face my fears and move forward in spite of them.

Michelangelo depicted David at the moment he decides to fight Goliath. Can you see the determination in his eyes? The power in his body, ready to take on the giant? Just brilliant.

If you ever feel like you are facing an insurmountable obstacle, if you ever feel overwhelmed, do what I do and watch this video.

It always makes me feel like I can take on the world…

…because honestly, that’s what I’m going to do.

My favorite little thing about Paris…

August 14, 2010

…was that a HUGE fresh market set itself up twenty feet from my hotel every Sunday.

I didn’t take pictures of the Farmer’s Market myself because I was busy shopping and having a WONDERFUL time, but I found some net pics that give you a pretty good idea.

People would crowd around the little booths, buying everything from delicious fruits and vegetables…

…to mouth-watering meats and wines…

…to clothing and jewelry.

It was so much fun, going through the hustle and bustle of bartering and sales.  Everyone was in a good mood, the venders shouting prices and making jokes with smiles on their faces.  I loved it!

The first time we went, my friend wanted to purchase a watermelon, but was uncertain how to ask for it in French.  She walked up with a shy smile and pointed at the watermelon, and the man asked her if she wanted it (in English).  She said yes, and he threw us a big cheesy grin, asking us how long we were in Paris while he bagged the watermelon.  We talked for a bit and made him laugh, and he tossed a couple of free bananas into the bag!  He was so nice!

It was a lovely way to start the week, I wish we had something like that close to my home now.

The little things like this, the small daily human interactions, reminded me that we are all just people, really, no matter where we live.

Interacting among the French people was my favorite little thing about Paris.

The Other Side of Paradise

August 11, 2010

So Paris was awesome…..

….but this has been a summer of painful awakenings and goodbyes.

Johnny Depp and Freddie Highmore in Neverland

I only have one year of college left and, for a person who has spent their entire lives in the classroom, the sudden realization of impending adulthood and responsibility is overwhelming.

I’ve never had to pay bills, make life-changing decisions, live far from home, or go somewhere where I would be completely and utterly alone. I attended a university in which I knew I had friends and a clear avenue for making more (band nerd), one that was a simple 45 minute drive away from the comforts of home.  I didn’t go home very often, mind you, but just knowing that it was there comforted me enough to allow me to focus on school rather than fear.  I did leave my best friends behind, and I suffered from severe loneliness my first year, but I had enough social avenues from the friends that were already at the university to keep myself distracted and forward thinking.

So overall, despite hardships, I made it through, I adapted, but I had help.

The reality of the situation hit me when one of my best friends told me she was moving away to graduate school last May.  In only three months.

However, like a true child, I spent much of the interim in severe denial, avoiding the pain of missing her and the pain of the prospect of losing everything I had ever known.  Paris was an amazing distraction, allowing me to divulge into another world completely, but it was waiting for me when I got home.

I love this Munch painting called "Puberty." It really captures the uncertainty and fear of budding adolescence.

In the weeks before and after Paris, I did something I haven’t done since I graduated high school when I  marathon-read the Harry Potter books:  I used fiction as a sort of numbing opiate to avoid reality.  Except this time, I watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Now, don’t get me wrong, the show was really cool and interesting and I loved diving into the characters and world Joss Whedon had created.  I’ll probably even blog later about my praises and criticisms of the show, because I loved it.  But I can’t deny the convenient timing and unhealthy nature of my pursuit.

I couldn’t face the real world, so I lost myself in a false one.

This is a Dali piece based on Alice in Wonderland. You can see the melting clock encircling the tree, and Alice in her dress beneath, hiding from reality.

I honestly don’t know why, maybe it was because I ran out of Buffy and Angel episodes, maybe it was the increase of alone time, maybe my family was just driving me crazy, but something changed.  I think it was a slow realization, rather than a Eureka moment.  I saw my friend come to terms with her emigration to another state, I went to a goodbye party for her and a few other friends who were also leaving.

I looked at a calendar, I looked at a clock, I looked in the mirror, and I anchored myself in reality again.

I had emerged from the rabbit hole and decided to face reality.  But what did that mean?  What was going to happen to me?  Where was my life going to go from there?

It was decision-making time, and even though I knew that it would be difficult, I had to face myself and my future.  But more than that, I wanted, I want, to ENJOY it.  That’s what I’m working on now. 😀